Monday, April 16, 2007
I Just Want To See His Face
Last July while I was walking my dog I watched a man pull up to the lovely, overgrown berm around the corner in a little white pickup with green serif lettering on its doors. He pulled a mower out of his bed, revved it up to a crabby roar and razed all that was green to a flat, sick, brown, buzz-cut. Pollen and dust clouded the street, insects didn't know what to do. I gave him the finger.
Even that meager stretch of earth endured, though. Nobody came back to butcher the plot the rest of summer. Clusters of verdant greenery bloomed untouched, a few feet from parked cars, in beds of dog shit and decomposing Walgreens bags. A lovely and rare sight in a city that pays little heed to the demands of sunlight and water.
Over winter, I watched the cracked and dried stalks poking through drifts, reminding grouchy commuters steadying themselves with outstretched arms and leather-soled shoes over shiny ripples of ice that the world is not dead, just dead tired.
Spring, pissed and cranky, is slow to rouse around here. It sits bolt upright in March, as if waking from a bad dream, then crashes deeper into folds of cold rain and snowflakes for the next month and a half. We shed layers when we know better, pretend it's warmer than it is, watch for the buds on the trees and the dormant grass to grapple and bury the garbage that's settled between rooty knots over the winter.
The berm around the corner was choked with garbage. I listened to hell in my headphones this weekend as I poked it clean with my King Tongs, sidestepping turds and dragging the detritus of American happiness out from the earth that was slowly claiming it. Joyous logos, garish graphics, foil and polyethylene. Plastic straws. Kill plastic.
I filled the dumpster. It took three hours, gray clouds cracking to sunlight. I couldn't imagine a more enjoyable thing to do with my time, head down, working for no man's land, dog hitched to the fence-post, kids on bikes waiting for my back to turn before they tossed their White Castle goblets to the ground.
Even that meager stretch of earth endured, though. Nobody came back to butcher the plot the rest of summer. Clusters of verdant greenery bloomed untouched, a few feet from parked cars, in beds of dog shit and decomposing Walgreens bags. A lovely and rare sight in a city that pays little heed to the demands of sunlight and water.
Over winter, I watched the cracked and dried stalks poking through drifts, reminding grouchy commuters steadying themselves with outstretched arms and leather-soled shoes over shiny ripples of ice that the world is not dead, just dead tired.
Spring, pissed and cranky, is slow to rouse around here. It sits bolt upright in March, as if waking from a bad dream, then crashes deeper into folds of cold rain and snowflakes for the next month and a half. We shed layers when we know better, pretend it's warmer than it is, watch for the buds on the trees and the dormant grass to grapple and bury the garbage that's settled between rooty knots over the winter.
The berm around the corner was choked with garbage. I listened to hell in my headphones this weekend as I poked it clean with my King Tongs, sidestepping turds and dragging the detritus of American happiness out from the earth that was slowly claiming it. Joyous logos, garish graphics, foil and polyethylene. Plastic straws. Kill plastic.
I filled the dumpster. It took three hours, gray clouds cracking to sunlight. I couldn't imagine a more enjoyable thing to do with my time, head down, working for no man's land, dog hitched to the fence-post, kids on bikes waiting for my back to turn before they tossed their White Castle goblets to the ground.
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J-
April is the cruelest month...
especially in mean ol' Chicago where the wind and lake conspire to keep spring's gentle symphony from rising.
It was 82 degrees in Omaha yesterday. Storm clouds have followed this morning bringing noise and rain and all the green that follows. Last night we sat in the neighbor's driveway and drank beer and bad wine coolers past dark while kids played "ghost in the graveyard" and darted around trees and between our lawn chairs like soldiers in search of an invisible enemy.
Wish you were here.
I think often of our last drive westward (why is the motion so important to me and my stories?) and your desire to see an eagle and all we saw were vultures.
"Jesus, we ought to just make the turkey vulture our national bird. They're fucking everywhere!" We've seen a dozen or so eagles this winter and spring on drives to O'Neill and Kearney and I almost feel guilty each time - not guilty exactly - I can't find the right word - that you aren't along for the ride.
From Ted Kooser:
"Turkey Vultures"
Circling above us, their wing-tips fanned like fingers, it is as if they are smoothing one of those tissue-paper sewing patterns over the pale blue fabric of the air,
touching the heavens with leisurely pleasure, just a word or two called back and forth,
taking all the time in the world, even though the sun is low and red in the west, and they have fallen behind with the making of shrouds.
Grab a corner and hold on...
J-
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April is the cruelest month...
especially in mean ol' Chicago where the wind and lake conspire to keep spring's gentle symphony from rising.
It was 82 degrees in Omaha yesterday. Storm clouds have followed this morning bringing noise and rain and all the green that follows. Last night we sat in the neighbor's driveway and drank beer and bad wine coolers past dark while kids played "ghost in the graveyard" and darted around trees and between our lawn chairs like soldiers in search of an invisible enemy.
Wish you were here.
I think often of our last drive westward (why is the motion so important to me and my stories?) and your desire to see an eagle and all we saw were vultures.
"Jesus, we ought to just make the turkey vulture our national bird. They're fucking everywhere!" We've seen a dozen or so eagles this winter and spring on drives to O'Neill and Kearney and I almost feel guilty each time - not guilty exactly - I can't find the right word - that you aren't along for the ride.
From Ted Kooser:
"Turkey Vultures"
Circling above us, their wing-tips fanned like fingers, it is as if they are smoothing one of those tissue-paper sewing patterns over the pale blue fabric of the air,
touching the heavens with leisurely pleasure, just a word or two called back and forth,
taking all the time in the world, even though the sun is low and red in the west, and they have fallen behind with the making of shrouds.
Grab a corner and hold on...
J-
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